Sojourner's Song

“I have become a pilgrim to cure myself of being an exile.” -G. K. Chesterton


Aaron Telian

I'm a clumsy Christian on a journey of discipline and discovery with Jesus. As a recovering Pharisee, I'm learning to trust God's grace over my goodness. I love the world, and I'm excited about learning what it means to be salt and light in a Post-Christian culture. This is where I write about living the sojourn.


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Thursday, December 25, 2008

The Christmas Harp

He was just a youth, and he loved music with all his heart, and he longed to be able to express the melody that was in his soul. But he could not; he had a harp and he often tried to play on it; but his clumsy fingers only made such discord that his companions laughed at him and mocked him, and called him a madman because he would not give it up, but would rather sit apart by himself, with his arms about his harp, looking up into the sky, while they gathered around their fire and told tales to wile away their long night vigils as they watched their sheep on the hills. But to him the thoughts that came out of the great silence were far sweeter than their mirth; and he never gave up the hope, which sometimes left his lips as a prayer, that some day he might be able to express those thoughts in music to the tired, weary, forgetful world.

On the first Christmas night he was out with his fellow shepherds on the hills. It was chill and dark, and all, except him, were glad to gather around the fire. He sat, as usual, by himself, with his harp on his knee and a great longing in his heart. And there came a marvellous light in the sky and over the hills, as if the darkness of the night had suddenly blossomed into a wonderful meadow of flowery flame; and all the shepherds saw the angels and heard them sing. And as they sang, the harp that the young shepherd held began to play softly by itself, and as he listened to it he realized that it was playing the same music that the angels sang and that all his secret longings and aspirations and strivings were expressed in it.


From that night, whenever he took the harp in his hands, it played the same music; and he wandered all over the world carrying it; wherever the sound of its music was heard hate and discord fled away and peace and good-will reigned. No one who heard it could think an evil thought; no one could feel hopeless or despairing or bitter or angry. When a man had once heard that music it entered into his soul and heart and life and became a part of him for ever.


Years went by; the shepherd grew old and bent and feeble; but still he roamed over land and sea, that his harp might carry the message of the Christmas night and the angel song to all mankind. At last his strength failed him and he fell by the wayside in the darkness; but his harp played as his spirit passed; and it seemed to him that a Shining One stood by him, with wonderful starry eyes, and said to him, 'Lo, the music thy harp has played for so many years has been but the echo of the love and sympathy and purity and beauty in thine own soul; and if at any time in the wanderings thou hadst opened the door of that soul to evil or envy or selfishness thy harp would have ceased to play. Now thy life is ended; but what thou hast given to mankind has no end; and as long as the world lasts, so long will the heavenly music of the Christmas harp ring in the ears of men.'


When the sun rose the old shepherd lay dead by the roadside, with a smile on his face; and in his hands was a harp with all its strings broken.


-L. M. Montgomery, The Golden Road, (Bantam Books: 1993), 19-20

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Monday, December 22, 2008

Thinking About Love

Many waters cannot quench love,
neither can floods drown it.
If a man offered for love
all the wealth of his house,
he would be utterly despised.
-Song of Solomon 8:7

I'm increasingly persuaded that I don't understand love for what it really is. It's much too wild and holy for us to pin down, explain, or even draw perimeters for.

Love doesn't fit into any of the clichés made for it. Love isn't "blind" - it's more that it can't believe it's eyes. I don't know where "cloud 9" is and I don't really care. "Head over heels" perhaps comes the closest, but it still sounds a bit too haphazard.

Maybe the inadequacy of these euphemisms should tell us something. Love is not something you understand. Love is something you do. It's a verb, not a noun. It takes you over, like a spontaneous, can't-help-it smile, shredding your selfishness into bits and drawing you into the nature of God.

God is love. Selah

Love is not self-seeking. It's not even self-conscious. Real love isn't thinking about loving, it just loves. It does what it is. Snow falls. Birds fly. Love loves.

Once you've experienced it, you want it for everyone; it's much too beautiful and sacred to keep to yourself. To have the opportunity to open yourself up and pour yourself out so completely for someone else is wonderful; for them to reciprocate that openness and affection is very heaven.

Love is not a commodity. You can't buy it or sell it. You can't even earn it. There are many sorry substitutes that are about as real as a plastic rose, but don't give up. The real thing is out there. You'll know it when you smell it. As my Grandfather says, wait for the zing.

I've been captured. I don't know all of what's in store , but I know I'll never be the same.

I love you Jessica!

I thought it was full but it was halfway to the top / Love is an ocean, and I am a tiny cup...
-Sandra McCracken, Red Balloon, "Halfway"

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Thursday, December 18, 2008

Something Beautiful

Last Thursday, I took Jessica to the beach for the afternoon. We had a nice drive across the valley, talking, eating french fries, and reading A Bear Called Paddington. In Templeton, we picked up some feed for Leah's goats and enjoyed a wonderful lunch with the Welch's.

Our destination was the W. R. Hearst State Beach in San Simeon. It was a beautiful day on the coast - warm with high clouds and a light breeze. Once Jessica had a chance to put her toes in the water, we walked down the beach and picked up a trail along the bluff through the Eucalyptus trees.

After stopping to climb some trees, we found a path back down to the water and explored some of the tide pools, looking at the crabs and starfish, watching the pelicans and gulls gliding above the water, and just enjoying being together.

It was 4:30 in the afternoon. I suggested we start heading back to the beach, and we turned around. We walked in silence, listening to the rustling wind and the rhythm of the surf. Beauty. Youth. Peace.

Love.

We got back to the main beach and explored some more tide pools. Anemones, barnacles, and more starfish. The sun was just beginning to set on the horizon, and a full moon was rising over the hills behind us, glowing soft in the evening mist.

"It's all enchanted and wild / Just like my heart said it was gonna be..."
-Nickel Creek, Nickel Creek, "Out Of The Woods"


There was a long pier extending over the water, and I asked her if we could walk out on it before we left. We stood at the end, looking out over the water, listening to the bells on the buoys and watching the pelicans diving in search of food.

After a few minutes we went over to a bench and sat on the backrest with our feet on the seat so we could see over the rail of the pier better.

I told her some poetry that I'd written and memorized as a preface to my proposal. Then I got down on my knee on the bench seat, took her hands in mine, and told her that I loved her - desperately, with everything I am. I told her I was ready to commit the rest of my life to loving her, caring for her, protecting her, sheltering her. And then I asked her if she would be my wife.

She said yes.

Four times.

Giddy, I unzipped my coat pocket and retrieved the ring. I slipped it on her finger, and we embraced hard - still having trouble believing we weren't dreaming. I was choking back sobs, but mostly we were too amazed to cry.

The sky was crisscrossed with brilliant color. We sat on the bench with our arms around each other, both in awe of what had just taken place. I said "It's us now, in everything," and she said "Yes..." and sighed happily. We prayed together about the future, fully conscious of the holiness of the moment.

"We don't know / And we won't know / What we're in for / But it's something beautiful..."
-Alex Mejias, Alex Mejias, "Something Beautiful"

I never dreamed.

We walked back down the pier, hand in hand for the first time. On the way to the restaurant, we called our families and told them the news. The celebration spread like electricity.

Looking at each other across the table at the restaurant, we still couldn't believe it. We ordered and tried to eat, and after the meal I gave her a Bible. Then it was time to drive home.

A piece of advice for the guys: get an automatic transmission. It makes holding hands a lot easier.


What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,
nor the heart of man imagined,
what God has prepared for those who love him.
-1 Corinthians 2:9
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Saturday, December 06, 2008

For the Love of Books

My 17 latest acquisitions, from a few used bookstores and a library book sale:

Lord Of The Flies - William Golding
Black Dog Of Fate - Peter Balakian
The Writing Life - Annie Dillard
No Man Is an Island - Thomas Merton
The Singer - Calvin Miller
A Wrinkle in Time - Madeleine L'Engle
The Penal Colony - Franz Kafka
The Face Of God - Bill Myers
The Gates Of The Forest - Elie Wiesel
The Living - Annie Dillard
The Seven Storey Mountain - Thomas Merton
The Shaping Of A Christian Family - Elisabeth Elliot
The Borrowers - Mary Norton
Night - Elie Wiesel
Redeeming The Time - Leland Ryken
The Odyssey -
Homer
The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn - Mark Twain



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Wednesday, December 03, 2008

Eating Jesus

"Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you have no life in you.

Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day.
For my flesh is true food, and my blood is true drink.

Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him.
As the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on me, he also will live because of me.

This is the bread that came down from heaven, not like the bread the fathers ate and died. Whoever feeds on this bread will live forever."

-John 6:54-58

Jesus preaches a new definition of life. (John 10:10) A life that is full and fulfilled. A life that is peaceful.
A life that is eternal. A life that is real.

This new life requires new provisions. Just as to live you need to eat, to stay alive spiritually you need spiritual sustenance. We find this sustenance in the person and presence of Christ. I don't know all of what this means, but I believe it.

When Jesus says that his flesh is true food and his blood is true drink, he is not saying that his flesh is as real as real food, or that his blood is as real as real drink. Rather he is saying that his flesh is more real than real food, and that his blood is more real than real drink.

Jesus is offering something that transcends the dust-to-dust cycle of mortality. He is offering himself. For us he was broken, for us he was made sin (2 Cor. 5:21 - was made it!), "by his stripes we are healed." (Isaiah 53:4-6)

I have come with one purpose / To capture for myself a bride / By my life she is lovely / And by my death she's justified... I have long pursued her / As a harlot and a whore / And she will feast upon me / She will drink and thirst no more / So when you taste / My flesh and my blood / You will know / You're not alone...
-Derek Webb, She Must And Shall Go Free, "The Church"


We need a more robust practice of communion in the Church today. No, I don't know what this looks like - I just sense we need it. We need to be partaking directly of the person of Christ and identifying directly with his life. "Whoever feeds on my flesh and drinks my blood abides in me, and I in him. As the living Father sent me, and I live because of the Father, so whoever feeds on me, he also will live because of me." I'm not a proponent of transubstantiation, but I have to give some credit to our Lutheran and Roman Catholic friends for taking the sacrament as seriously as they do.

We need to be eating Jesus.


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